CAT SMRT

Agent 99 reporting this evening.

I was reviewing my old blog today, and doing so took quite a bit of time.  I started back in 2005 but reached my peak between 2007 and 2009.  The glory days…..I ran for POTUS in 2008 and took on Obama.  I got married to my sweetheart, SlyCat.  Sam, The Marmalade Cat, was pursuing me.  Life was good.

So what happened???  Well, ok Chief got married and had a baby.  That cut into time for a while.

I sat down with Chief from CTRL today and had a, well what should I call it?”  A Pow-Wow?  A Come to Jesus Meeting?  A Heart to Heart?

Lately the drama of her life has been just too over the top…..really her drama queen antics are cutting into my blogging way too much.  I told her so.  And here’s a clue as to the main reason:

Then (2008)

Notice what’s on the computer screen…..yes, for those of you who remember, it’s The Whole Kitten Kaboodle.  It was a great blog, very popular.  At one time it reached number 5 in the world for hits.

What’s on the computer screen now?

That’s right!  The desktop wallpaper is KAOS!!!

I tried to convince Chief to let me start blogging again instead of her pouring out her soul on my blog.  It will be better for both of us.  She agreed to try but made no promises.

That means I can restart my POTUS campaign.

More later………….

Luv,

Agent 99

First a photo of Agent 99

Now for an update from Chief.

Wow, it has been a month since I last posted.

Much has happened.  Agent 13 continues to have episodes (I don’t know what else to call them), during which he becomes so hyper-focused he is totally unaware of what happens around him.  If it were just the two of us, I wouldn’t become so upset.  But when it involves KAOS and his safety, I have to react.

For example, a couple of weeks ago he offered to give KAOS a bath.  (BTW:  KAOS is now 23 months old)  I offered to help, but Agent 13 declined.  They were in the bathroom together, KAOS in the bathtub and 13 watching him.  Suddenly 13 bolted out of the bathroom and out the back door.  I went on alert but watched and waited.  The water was still running in the bathtub with KAOS in it.  After several minutes 13 came in and started washing dishes in the kitchen.  I went in and confronted him.  It took several attempts to get his attention.  When I told him what he had done, and that he had left KAOS alone in a bathtub with water running, he became hostile but then it sank in, and he went directly into the bathroom and didn’t leave.

It’s hard to describe.  You have to see it.  Good news though, the sleepwalking seems to have stopped.  However two nights ago he woke around 12:30 am and started accusing me of causing all sorts of problems.  He was hostile and there is no arguing with it…….. of course he doesn’t remember.  But at least I’m not so worried that he is going to actually get out of bed and wake up KAOS at 2, 3 4 in the morning and take him into the kitchen to bake cookies or pies.

There have been other incidents.  I don’t need to recount them.

What I want to post about tonight is my women friends who are standing by me through all this.

My grandmother died last September at the age of 93.  One thing I remember clearly hearing her say is that her women friends through church meant more and more to her as she became older.  I am far younger than she was when I heard her say this, but now I am beginning to understand.  And it’s not just women friends through church, it’s also through women’s groups that don’t necessarily have a connection to a church.

Very few of my personal friends know what is happening.  But the ones who do are unfailingly supportive and steadfast.  And there are a couple of women who needed to know an “overview,” a brief explanation about my sudden disappearance, then mini reappearance, who without any questions support me and keep me in the network.

This is in complete contrast to the young pastor who graciously gave his time for counseling.  The last time I met him, he let it slip that he thought I was making things up.  I suppose if you counsel couples, there must be a balance and skepticism directed at both counselees, cuz of course each wants to look perfect.  But I wasn’t making up the events he thought I was……didn’t sit well with me.

So what conclusion should I make??? I’m not sure.  I’m gratified by the understanding women are directing my way.  I’m disappointed at the skepticism from the men.  And I’m dismayed that it seems to break down by gender.

Things to ponder.

Best to all,

Chief

…….But Challenges Still Remain.  An update on life here.

But this has always been first a cat blog, so here are a couple of recent photos of Agent 99.

Agent 99 Demonstrates Catoflaging as Laundry

Agent 99 Investigates Laundry

Now for the Humans.

We all took a needed break and went to the local Zoo.  We took KAOS’s older half brother for his birthday, and bro’s girlfriend joined us.  Agent 13 commented on how he enjoyed the day.  He seemed much more like his old self.  If you are friends with Chief on Facebook, you can see the photos there.

It’s been quieter here.  There are still moments where confusion reigns because Agent 13 forgets what has been agreed upon.  I’m laying low for the most part and trying to avoid the conflict in those situations.

But it’s hard.  A couple of weeks ago, Agent 13 got up early again in one of his episodes.   it was 4:00 am, and he woke up KAOS and took him into the kitchen to watch as Agent 13 made cookies from scratch.  I had to confront him then.  I can’t let those instances go.  He flew into a bizarre rant that made no sense.  He even claimed that prior to the wedding, I had yelled at him in front of the senior pastor at church (not the younger one who has tried to help us).  He claimed that S. Pastor would verify it and actually warned him in advance not to marry me.  That’s just so absurd it laughable.  But still I admit, it’s hard not to be hurt by it.  And more important is to get KAOS away from that.  Of course Agent 13 doesn’t remember saying any of it.

And it’s getting really hard too when it becomes clear that Agent 13 believes something happened that didn’t.  He refuses to travel now and claims it’s because we have fought on every trip.  We haven’t.  I have tried to get him to clarify, name a time and place, a topic of conflict, etc.  But he can’t and just gets angry.  But that’s his reality now.  And my reality is that I did not get to travel to Wisconsin to visit my grandmother before she died.  And KAOS isn’t getting the opportunity to meet and know his cousins, aunts and uncles.  This narrow little world feels like it’s closing in even closer.

But I’m very grateful for the personal friends I have who know what is happening.  They have all been tremendously supportive, always checking in on me if they haven’t heard from me.  And several are making standing dates to go walking, etc. once a week.  They are truly remarkable people.

p.s.  for clarification, I went through my last few posts and changed everyone’s names back to the character names.  I think for internet safety it’s best.  Don’t know why I didn’t think to do so already.